You're truly drive me mad, My Lord.
It's okay btw, at least I know You are the only one who always stand beside me, watching me through my life when there is no one doing that. Even I don't want to, but I'm glad to know that you were there. We've been fooling each other around lately. Or it's just me who fooling my self, I don't know exactly but I thought it's some kind of your game that you have to be playing with. It's funny you know. When I write down everything about my thought in my moron fucking book about what's have been happening to my life and what I expected to happen and write about all of shity things in my head. And woohhhooopp you make it come true of course there's the price to pay.
It's not like all of what I've written in that stupid book become a reality in my life, just some things that I write with a faith, love and et cetra et cetra were come true. Lantas kenapa harus marah? Because the price that I got to pay is slap me in the face left-right-upside-down. Saya memang belum mendekati kebaikan menjadi manusia itu tuhan, tapi saya berusaha. Tahu kan usaha saya seperti apa? Dan ada sesuatu yg pernah aku tulis di post sebelumnya tapi mungkin Tuanku Tuhan belum membacanya.
It's okay btw, at least I know You are the only one who always stand beside me, watching me through my life when there is no one doing that. Even I don't want to, but I'm glad to know that you were there. We've been fooling each other around lately. Or it's just me who fooling my self, I don't know exactly but I thought it's some kind of your game that you have to be playing with. It's funny you know. When I write down everything about my thought in my moron fucking book about what's have been happening to my life and what I expected to happen and write about all of shity things in my head. And woohhhooopp you make it come true of course there's the price to pay.
It's not like all of what I've written in that stupid book become a reality in my life, just some things that I write with a faith, love and et cetra et cetra were come true. Lantas kenapa harus marah? Because the price that I got to pay is slap me in the face left-right-upside-down. Saya memang belum mendekati kebaikan menjadi manusia itu tuhan, tapi saya berusaha. Tahu kan usaha saya seperti apa? Dan ada sesuatu yg pernah aku tulis di post sebelumnya tapi mungkin Tuanku Tuhan belum membacanya.
tuhan,
kalau kau membalas kejahatanku
dengan kejahatan lagi,
apa bedanya kau dan aku?
amin.
kalau kau membalas kejahatanku
dengan kejahatan lagi,
apa bedanya kau dan aku?
amin.
ps: Biarkan diriku malu atas kebaikanmu, kemurahan hatimu, dan segala kesempurnaan yg kau punya. Tapi jangan balas kejahatan dan keburukan yg aku punya dengan kejahatan lagi. Atau mungkin Tuanku menganggapnya sebuah permainan. Tapi maafkan hambamu yg tak sanggup menerimanya.
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