I Feel Myself Get Tired

Inspired by Lindsay Lohan-Who Loves You

He was so perfect but I can't have it

"love him so but I let him go
Cause I knew he never love me back"

I try to think what to do
I make a plan, to took a chance
But, everything is too late to me now

"Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss
Still little bit delirious"
(Fine frenzy-Near to you)

Love Doesn't Have a Happy Ending,Because It Never End

All this beauty can't make me easily to leave you.
Even just for awhile, I can't.
Arggghhh
We both know, That we never have a chance to be together
What should I do because you already fuck my mind
Get the fucked up!

It's negative things but everybody needs one

"for whatever reason, I feel like I've been wanting you all my life
You don't understand, I'm so glad we're at the same place at the same times"

If I just have 36 frames in my memory, I'll make sure all of them were full by your photograph.
The way you smile, the way you look at me, how you walk, the way you laugh when you take my photograph and showed to me, and everything about you that I couldn't say because it's like zillioon things. All of your kindness to me, that you simply forget but not for me, I try to find the reason why I always keep falling, but I still can't find it. We have like 3-4 years to get to know each other, so we can walk this walk slowly. Thank you for taking care of me when no one stand beside me. Thank you for everything..

"What would it take for you to just leave with me?
Not tryin' to sound conceited but you and me are meant to be"

(britney spears-boys)

I ♥ my self too!

Inspired by #FFFFOUND!

I ♥ Ratu Bethara
I ♥ my Mom
my daddy too
my sisters
my brother
kirana (♥)
my friend
my life
my enemy
who hate me
who love me
my teacher
my university
my faculty
my major
I ♥ U (I do! really really do)

XOXO

Did I meant to you?

"Ya Tuhan, jadikan wanita yang membaca ini menjadi wanita yang cantik, kuat, sabar, sehat dan di sayangi banyak orang. Tolong dan tingkatkan kehidupannya. Begitupun jika dia melangkah, selamatkan dia. Astungkara."

I received this beautiful and thoughtful message in the morning. It came from my old friend Rahayu, this is a forward message. I always ignoring a forward message, but when I read it, they got me. I feel so yellow at that time and feel blessed at the same time by this message. Because it's been a hard week for me, because now I know when I open my room door and walk into the room and shut it behind I'm alone. But, it gets better everyday. As how collage life completly stole my whole attention.

I love you mom, I love you sisters

I just don't know what to do

I watch my world around me fade to gray.
I don't know what to do, because there's no one beside me.
That I can tell to.
I keep in silent, it feels like a years.
I hate this situation but I'll not let myself down.
I'll keep survive, because in the middle of the night when I trying to sleep
I hear your voice saying that "You're not alone"
I believe in you God, and so that I can sleep now as I know there is you watching me wasting my life.
Without complaining.

2.12 am

I

MISS

YOU

MOM