Hello 2010!

Happy New Year, everybody!

Now I realize that I love it when it's broken.

Why it feel so hard?

Terima kasih tuhan karena telah memberikanku kesempatan melihatnya bahagia.
Lalu, mengapa hati ini terasa sakit?

I'm A Freshmen In Collage

My Cheering Up Dekstop Wallpy
I made it by my self, this words are mine!

xx

Note: Yes I didn't used my macppy, I'am a windower now :(

I Feel Myself Get Tired

Inspired by Lindsay Lohan-Who Loves You

He was so perfect but I can't have it

"love him so but I let him go
Cause I knew he never love me back"

I try to think what to do
I make a plan, to took a chance
But, everything is too late to me now

"Such pain as this shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss
Still little bit delirious"
(Fine frenzy-Near to you)

Love Doesn't Have a Happy Ending,Because It Never End

All this beauty can't make me easily to leave you.
Even just for awhile, I can't.
Arggghhh
We both know, That we never have a chance to be together
What should I do because you already fuck my mind
Get the fucked up!

It's negative things but everybody needs one

"for whatever reason, I feel like I've been wanting you all my life
You don't understand, I'm so glad we're at the same place at the same times"

If I just have 36 frames in my memory, I'll make sure all of them were full by your photograph.
The way you smile, the way you look at me, how you walk, the way you laugh when you take my photograph and showed to me, and everything about you that I couldn't say because it's like zillioon things. All of your kindness to me, that you simply forget but not for me, I try to find the reason why I always keep falling, but I still can't find it. We have like 3-4 years to get to know each other, so we can walk this walk slowly. Thank you for taking care of me when no one stand beside me. Thank you for everything..

"What would it take for you to just leave with me?
Not tryin' to sound conceited but you and me are meant to be"

(britney spears-boys)

I ♥ my self too!

Inspired by #FFFFOUND!

I ♥ Ratu Bethara
I ♥ my Mom
my daddy too
my sisters
my brother
kirana (♥)
my friend
my life
my enemy
who hate me
who love me
my teacher
my university
my faculty
my major
I ♥ U (I do! really really do)

XOXO

Did I meant to you?

"Ya Tuhan, jadikan wanita yang membaca ini menjadi wanita yang cantik, kuat, sabar, sehat dan di sayangi banyak orang. Tolong dan tingkatkan kehidupannya. Begitupun jika dia melangkah, selamatkan dia. Astungkara."

I received this beautiful and thoughtful message in the morning. It came from my old friend Rahayu, this is a forward message. I always ignoring a forward message, but when I read it, they got me. I feel so yellow at that time and feel blessed at the same time by this message. Because it's been a hard week for me, because now I know when I open my room door and walk into the room and shut it behind I'm alone. But, it gets better everyday. As how collage life completly stole my whole attention.

I love you mom, I love you sisters

I just don't know what to do

I watch my world around me fade to gray.
I don't know what to do, because there's no one beside me.
That I can tell to.
I keep in silent, it feels like a years.
I hate this situation but I'll not let myself down.
I'll keep survive, because in the middle of the night when I trying to sleep
I hear your voice saying that "You're not alone"
I believe in you God, and so that I can sleep now as I know there is you watching me wasting my life.
Without complaining.

2.12 am

I

MISS

YOU

MOM

Thank You!

This doodling is dedicated for my teacher mas rizal and mas nunung for inspiring me to work hard on writing. And thanks to make me get my passions in writing and photography, even I still can't make a good writing. But I hope someday it will happen. You two are the best teacher in entire ugm. But this doodle also become my guilty pleasure, because I drew it on my basic writing litterature :p

I want to see everything

This photo was taken in ugm, while moslem people waiting for adzan or also called ngabuburit.

Give Me Time

deviantart

I need time to survive here in this new town.

I need time to realize that I'm far away from home.

To understand how this life is going on without your parents, your family and your friend. And live it all my life with all the strangers from all over this nation. That someday I hope they're become my friend and family too.
I'm so lucky if one of the stranger can become one of my bestfriend.

I just need time...
To leave all of my "White and Gray Life" and put it in my life track record.

My life that can't you see with naked eye, only they who have a heart that can see the colour.

The real colour of "White and Gray" that surely can make you won't leave.

I just need time...

To see this new live I life really are.

What should I do? or What should I've become to be?

Should I fake myself? or Stay what I was be?

But I know time will show me that this world is not as bad as it paints on my mind.

Show Me The Way

Sometimes I’d listen outside her door
And I’d hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I’m praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don’t do it usually
But dear Lord she’s dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

Luther Vandross- Dance With My Father

Kleptomaniac

You may not be my first.

But I hope this could everlasting.

You stole it from me, without permission.

Like a Kleptomaniac, not being able to resist that he take something from me.  

I love You.

It's not about your eyes, because I never look at you in the eyes.

It's not about your skin, because I never touch your skin.

It's not about your attitude, because without it you still got me.

When you ask me what is exactly make me feel like this.

I just can't answer it.

Because there's something on you that I can't find on someone else.

 I loved you so, but I should let you go.

Because I don't know how to let you know.

Maybe it's because I'm not thinking about you on every second of my life?

Maybe just because I'm not trying, as I should be?

Maybe 'cause I know you'd never love me back.

But, I do give my something that you can break.

My heart.   

Psychofun (part 2)

Dapatkah kau bayangkan bila mentari takkan lagi sinari bumi ini?

Dapatkah kau rasakan saat langit dan bumi menangis?

Festival Karmany Smansa. Smansa is SMA Negeri 1 Denpasar my Senior High School. This event is been held every year. And This year Psychofun is one of the guest star. Not a bad choice though. Since they're kindda pop rock, the crowd is fulfill by boys and of course there was a little bit chaos.

Reach Out

"It's a long road when you face the world alone, when no one reaches out a hand for you to hold. You can find love if you search within your soul, and the emptiness you felt will disappear."

Mariah Carey

Fabulous Underwater Photography

Am I look obsessed with underwater shoot? This is my second post about underwater shoot (first post) Everybody want once to have a underwater shoot, don't you? And now I announce Elena Kalis as my Ah-mazing! underwater photographer. The color of her photograph rock my ass! Right? Someday, I want to do a underwater shoot :pray: